I got stuck. It didn’t happen all at once, but the end result is the same. I exist almost exclusively inside of a 10 foot sphere of space. My agoraphobia seems to have reached it’s ultimate potential. Some days it isn’t so bad. But even those days take monumental effort. Like walking uphill through molasses. … Continue reading Stuck: Agoraphobia and Moving
Absolutely incredible. This is faith.
This post will suck. It won't make sense, it will jump around. I don't care. I need to write. I'm sick of scraping by. Losing the business, combined with other money problems... Ugh. It's a mess. I'm broke right now. Like, if I can just get x amount of dollars to get caught up, I … Continue reading A Snapshot of Mental Illness
Do any other parents on here have kids with anxiety or other mental illness problems? How do you cope with it? Do you go the medication route, therapy, lifestyle changes, coping skills, or a combination of those? Something else entirely? What works for you and your child? I am utterly afraid. I feel like the … Continue reading Children and Anxiety
I don't know how to write this entry, and trying to write it might undo any progress I have made in making Dissociative Identity Disorder more understandable. But it needs to be written if I am to be honest, so I am just going to wing it. Anything (or everything) that doesn't make sense to … Continue reading On Dissociation: Verde and Nadia (Trigger Warning)
Since Day 13: Share a Quote was such a breeze, I decided to go on to the next one. Share a Fear You Overcame: I fight my fears on a daily basis, but I'm having trouble thinking of a major fear that I straight up overcame. The consistent battles over the other fears kind of … Continue reading #LoveMe Challenge Day 14: Share a Fear You Overcame
I made a post the other day entitled Paige. Well, Paige did. I'll try to ease you in here. I have Dissociative Identity Disorder. It is more commonly known as Multiple Personality Disorder, which is still a misnomer, but can at least give you a basic framework. I went through severe trauma as a child. … Continue reading On Dissociation and Multiple Identities: In Reference to “Paige”
Well, the dismissive answer would be that this blog would be it. My closest friends and family know I have a blog, but they don't know the address and don't ask for it, respecting my need for a private outlet. Everything I write here has some element of being unable to be written anywhere else … Continue reading #LoveMe Challenge Day 10: Share a Secret
I've texted or messaged everyone I know who might understand. My family is asleep or at work. How do you deal with cutting urges when your support network is unavailable?
Awake for about 36 hours straight now, with the exception of a few hours nap yesterday afternoon. And due to important family events, I won't be getting to sleep until well after midnight tonight. So it will be about 50 hours give or take. Thank God I have been able to get my meds even … Continue reading Inertia and Insomnia