Through The Ghost

I initially wrote this as a combination of a journal entry and a letter to the sub and the sailor (the sub’s girlfriend and my submissive-esque person – we are still defining it). I am editing it to both redact names and such, as well as adding more information because I think it needs to …

Best Weird Gift.

My husband, knowing I am a Doctor Who fan and also a smoking fetishist, sent me this picture as a Christmas present this morning. Courtesy of Matt Smith's Facebook page. I love having a weird marriage. 🙂 An Anonymous Outsider

Jehovah Jireh: The Dinner and the Dollar

Writer's Note: This is part of a much longer post, titled Changes. Jehovah Jireh: The Dinner and the Dollar Last night, I attended an annual "Ladies Dinner" with my mom, that is hosted by several local churches, including my mom's. It was my third time attending with her, and, despite my discomfort with any organized …

The Autonomy Declaration

Writer's Note: This is part of a much larger post, titled Changes. The Autonomy Declaration This is a pretty major deal for me. The other day, my husband and I were talking and dealing with some issues that had built up over the last couple of years, while we had a different submissive living with …

One Trip In The Tardis (A Thought Experiment)

For those of you who aren't familiar, the Tardis is a time machine from an amazing British Sci-Fi show called Doctor Who. It can travel to any point in time and space. So forget needing roads or getting up to 88 miles per hour, and being stuck in Hill Valley forever: you can go to any …

Tired Parenting

So, last night I was helping the kiddo with his homework. Trying to help might be a more accurate description. He was a bit more tired than usual, and his attitude was definitely not where it needed to be, tired or not. After spending an hour on a math sheet that, minus arguing and stalling, …

Fake Pearls (A Parable and a Surrender)

I have two hours before I have to leave to go to the shop and get the last of my shop, and hand over my keys. The hub and the sub are sleeping, the kiddo is at school, and my mom is napping. So it's just the next two hours pretty much by myself. I …

The Cage and The Cocoon

I feel like I have too much to write to know how to start. I also know that saying that up front is often the exact route to getting it started. Today my business deal was agreed upon, for a disgustingly small amount. I am going in on Friday to pick up a few remaining …

In The Deep

It's hard to think about shallow things like what you want to eat when you were just thinking about deep things. - my kiddo today after a cathartic meltdown on his part, where we talked about pain and the importance of never giving up no matter how hard things get. My 8 year old kicks …

“I Wish I Could Have…” On Mathematics and Motivation

"I wish I could have..." I found this thought drifting through my head today, in regards to missing out on my education because I had inadequate support/understanding/treatment for my mental illness. I was talking to the sub about mathematics, until he glazed over because I had traveled out of his interest/knowledge area about it. I …